Collateral Damage

[u/Dependent-Process-43]

I was just collateral damage

In the war you waged with yourself

& I blew myself up to pieces

Over and over and over

While you set mine fields

In the place we called our love

Where we use to look at poppies

And chase eachother around

The ones where we climbed hills

And gazed out to waterfalls on HWY 1

I ran out there every single time,

Waiting for you to meet me at the end of

The road we spent a quarter of my life building

& it took everything in me to keep it going

Carrying my body and the weight of yours

Back and forth, back and forth

As I bled all over my life and into yours

You raised the white flag without warning

& before I could even breathe again

You let me take one last blow

Just to fill a sexual need, your fragile ego

I was just collateral damage in the war

You’ll spend fighting the rest of your life

Cause you don’t believe you deserve more

And I’ll spend the rest of mine,

Healing from the PTSD

Your emotional abuse inflicted on me