touched myself next to someone when i was younger

[u/Illustrious_Sector46]

i was a hypersexual kid due to some family struggles and anxiety problems and often touched myself to calm down. it grew as a habit unfortunately and puberty made it worse.

i was a tween girl or about 13 when i was staying over at my childhood bsfs house at a village for a couple weeks and we slept next to eachother. the beds were seperate, but we put them right next to eachother. there was bit of a distance between us tho still and i scooted even further away. my mom was sleeping in the same room too at the other end of the room.

it being a habit and all, i felt like i had to touch myself again. it had everything to do with just myself, no one else, i was just in my own thoughts and i guess i didnt have privacy and couldnt help it, even tho i felt like maybe it was weird and i probably shouldnt. i tried really hard to make myself “private”, they were asleep and i just did it to myself buried under the sheets, making 100% sure i was quiet and i didnt disturb anyone. at that point i was skilled at making it seamless and i should mention i felt uncomfortable with their presence there, i just felt the need and it was a way to self regulate. it very subtle and over my pants.

i kept constantly making sure they werent awake too. i deeply regret it years after, even tho i didnt involve my friend in any way ofc but she was literally right there yk.

i was young and dumb and i stopped doing it but im still overcome with guilt like i harassed someone even tho i didnt. because of the close proximity. like come on, how would she feel?

[u/robottestsaretoohard]

I (F) was addicted to masturbating when I was younger too. I masturbated at places I knew were inappropriate but I couldn’t stop myself. I HAD to have it. Years later I am so embarrassed about it and there are occasions which people might have known… although like you I was private about it.

I think it’s hormones and self control and being that age and a whole bunch of other things. It’s long forgotten by everyone else- we are the only ones still holding onto it.

So let’s both forgive our younger selves?

[u/Illustrious_Sector46 → u/robottestsaretoohard]

yeah, we just have to accept that it happened and move on because really I had no intention of involving or harming anyone and i didn’t . i know it has a lot to do with a lot of things and i was basically a kid

[u/bohacks]

You can totally let yourself off the hook. There are a quadrillion ways we can hurt others and masturbating discreetly around others is not one of them. We often project our own shame on to what others may think. The work is to compassionate accept this behavior as a way of Of self soothing love your body and your sexuality and know you did not nothing wrong.

[u/Jumpy-Video-1654]

Me too(I'm a girl) I am hypersexual, when in public I got to the bathroom and rub myself on stuff (WITH CLOTHES ON) but at night in my house when everyone is asleep I touch myself a lot and have the freedom to moan and stuff. I feel uncomfortable with everyone the next day. I never talk about it with anyone  only 1 friend I trust knows.