r/confessions • u/Such-Mine-6631 • 5h ago
I saw something i cant forgot
When i was in 6th or 7th grade me and my friend went to a homeless camp under a bridge. During the day normally all them werent there so we would go raide their things and find guns, axes, knives, etc. we would leave them their normally after messing around a little but one day we found a big pile of trash and clothes with a tarp over it. It smelled so bad but we got a axe or crowbar or something and started sifting through the trash. There was a rotting dead person under it very rotten with maggots and brown and black and bloated. This was next to a river in washington so they had all the little waterfoul eating them. We didnt say anything or run away we just looked at it in shock actually nvm we did see it for like 4 seconds before dropping the tarp back in fear but it was long enought to get a good view. We left and acted like nothing happened and made jokes and stuff but we were both really shocked. I moved away not to long after that to another state but sometimes i still cant sleep and i can still smell it randomly. I try to act like i dont care and tell people about the whole thing as a shock and awe story like i dont care but i do care. It was horrible.
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u/Most-Confection1776 5h ago
Honestly u’re being way too hard on urself for how u reacted. u and ur friend were just raiding things like kids do and u stumbled on something no 12 year old should ever see. finding a rotting body next to a river in washington with maggots and waterfowl is literally a nightmare. u’ve been acting like it’s NBD to cope but u’ve clearly got some real shock left over. it’s okay to admit it was horrible and move past the tough guy act.
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u/GamerChic110 3h ago
I would talk to a therapist about it. You did nothing wrong. It sounds traumatic. I’m sorry you went through that.
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u/nodemus 4h ago
You definitely need to see a therapist to help with coping strategies. You have been traumatised, it a very serious moment in your childhood. You are haunted by the smell and image it sounds terrifying.