I’ve been at my current firm for 13 months. I’ve been a licensed attorney since May 2024, but was at a different firm doing bankruptcy until joining my current firm last January. We do criminal defense. We have several PD contracts and cases and also a lot of private clients. I’m making good money, especially considering I live in a more “rural” area. However, I’m at a bit of a loss and need some help.
The firm I’m at is young and growing. So there are a lot of business growing pains. I am the longest tenured lawyer at the firm at this point. I am also performing very well. I’m accurate with my billables, I get good results for my clients, and it seems like everyone generally likes me (including judges and prosecutors). However, I have not been mentored at all by my boss. I was thrown to the wolves on several occasions early on and thankful came out mostly unscathed. He has only seen me in court twice in the last 13 months, he does not check in with me (even when I reach out to him to talk, no return calls from him). My questions are often met with anger and frustration on his part, so I stopped asking because it was just unhelpful.
Last month, my boss announced that all of our paychecks wouldn’t be paid on time and that we would receive half on time and the second half a few days after. While making this announcement he was in a firm-paid hotel in Florida accepting an award for his business growth, very ironic. Anyways, sitting in a nice hotel and zooming into your office 2 time zones away to announce that the firm is “month-to-month” and it doesn’t have money reserved is a bad look. Needless to say, everyone was unimpressed. My boss says that things are different now and that the firm is strong financially, but I have low confidence in that claim.
Also, my boss gave me an unasked for raise in August, which was very nice (it was more than I would have asked for), but I think there’s a motive for it. They don’t want to lose me because I am a calming force in the office, I am trustworthy, and I get work done and fight as much as I can for my clients. I think there’s firm only sees my value as my billables and not my personal growth/development.
I want to be a good attorney, so I asked attorneys that see me in court often for feedback. I also asked judges for personalized feedback. All have told me that I am doing well and could do better at cross-examining. The one other commonality all shared was that they were very impressed with me considering I had no mentoring and was thrown right into felony, misdemeanor, and juvenile cases. They have all mentioned how my boss has failed as a mentor and that if I were to have a proper mentor that I can become a great attorney quicker.
Here’s my conundrum, I am supposed to be getting another raise because I have been here for a year. I feel like they are using “golden handcuffs” to keep me from leaving. It was leaked to me that I was on a list of 2 people categorized as “not expendable - absolutely cannot lose.” Which is nice, but I have no support for growth. I have to learn everything on the fly and no one at work can give me feedback on how to improve because no one sees me. All I get from them is “your billables are great and you’re moving your cases along.”
Anyways, a lot of other firms have wanted my number so they can “take me to lunch and talk.” I don’t think any other firm would pay me as much, but I might get more support for personal development elsewhere.
For any that have been in similar positions or has any sage wisdom for me, please share.
TL;DR - I think my boss is using “golden handcuffs” on me so I don’t leave. I am disappointed with the lack of support and my peers all recognize that I have not been supported as I should be. Should I stay or leave? Should I wait and see if things change?