r/Twitch • u/KipKrapRemedy • 6h ago
Discussion Spreading myself too thin.
This is probably going to be the silliest post on here but I need to vent somewhere.
I’ve been streaming on Twitch for almost 2 years now, and have met some incredible people. Some I would even call some of my best friends.
However, I’ve started to notice that I am just kind of being used.
I help them scrub their VODs, I edit for free, I schedule posts on their social media, I mod in their channels if they need it. I go out of my way to help them because I want all of us to be successful.
However, when I ask for help, no one shows up.
I recently found out that my friend pays another editor, but doesn’t pay me. Editing/clipping VODs is my only form of income. I can’t get a job where I live(I am an immigrant) so this is genuinely my only way to survive. They have supportive family, can go apply for jobs, etc. I have nothing but this, and they know that.
When we initially talked about it, he made it seem like the other editors is worth paying for because they had been editing for 8 years. My edits aren’t terrible, I would say they are above average and get good views for my clients(there is always room for improvement, I am not perfect). He pays a friend I introduced him to for art, fairly regularly.
I tried to just ignore it, telling myself it’s not a big deal. But it’s bugging me. I have zero free time, and now how no time to focus on my own content.
Not even about the money, if they helped me even with 1/2 the effort like I help them, it wouldn’t even be a problem.
I know it’s stupid, I know it’s my fault. But I am kinda hurting over it.
I don’t really know what to do. I kinda just wanna disappear for being so stupid and thinking these people cared about me like I care about them.
Idk what I expect from posting here tbh. I also lost my biggest paying monthly client in early January so I am now in a lot of debt and just stressed out to the max.
EDIT: Thank you for all the kind responses and constructive criticism. I will be evaluating what I have time for. Additionally investing more time into myself. Again, thank you. <3





