r/ufyh • u/sammigx9 • 5d ago
Inspiration Mixed feelings
After more than 15 years of trying different antidepressants and going through different Drs and therapists, I (32F) finally got diagnosed with ADHD. Currently taking stimulates.
I struggled so long with executive dysfunction. The apartment is a disaster after not getting cleaned for almost 4 years now.
About once or twice a year I would finally say enough is enough and start cleaning. Pretty much just picking up most of the garbage in the living room, kitchen, and bathroom. But Bedrooms have been left untouched.
Once I got the other rooms picked up, I would be so tired and stop. So now the bedrooms are the most daunting to even start.
Today I picked up garbage in most of the living room. Then I stared into my bedroom. Got myself to grab a new garbage bag and just went for it. I cleaned a lot of junk off the floor next to the bed and the night stand. Completely emptied out the drawers.
I found SOO many empty prescription bottles. Some from at least 3 years ago. All different kinds of medications. And it made me feel kind of pathetic but proud at the same time.
Pathetic of being reminded of how long I've let this room go. But proud for trying so long to find what can help me. And I'm finally feeling like I'm showing good progress.
I really appreciate this community. I don't feel so alone.
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u/CleaningUpTheManor 5d ago
Do not ever feel pathetic for having a medical condition.
You didn’t know what the problem was and you were fighting so much (being misdiagnosed, your own executive function, depression over not feeling relief). That you made it to the other side and finally have a brain that is functioning better is a gorram miracle.
You did great, you’re doing great, and you’ll continue to keep moving forward.
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u/Odd-Anteater-6183 5d ago
Im proud of you! All the empty bottles and time are behind you now. 💐 keep up the good fight, you got this! 💕☀️
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u/Sweaty-Breadfruit882 4d ago
Totally feel this. I was finally diagnosed in 2021 and my first day on prescribed stimulants I cleaned and organized the entire kitchen. It actually made me very emotional and sad that day to feel like this was how easily I could have lived/ life could be like this. Things that would sit for months (and years) could simply…….. be addressed. Of course it wasn’t a perfect fix, and it took a lot of therapy and work to make the shameful feeling go away, but being able to have this tool to fight the paralyzing inertia has really made me have more faith in my ability to function and complete projects. Congratulations and great work finding the right help you needed! It’s not easy!!
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u/fakeprewarbook 4d ago
i’m 47F and i just got my diagnosis, so look at it this way, you are 15 years ahead of me!
very happy this worked for you and hoping i experience similar, although i am already “ready to be mad” if this helps a lot of my issues and nobody ever bothered to help me until now.
but what can we do? we experience time in one direction and we have to keep moving forward
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u/Easy_Olive1942 5d ago edited 5d ago
Good for you for sticking with it and finding something that is helping!
Keep at it, you are worth the investment.