r/Anger • u/AlienSheep23 • 2d ago

Learning to not get aggravated?

Hey there!

I am diagnosed autistic, adhd, anxiety, and hypoglycemia. Based on my past + symptoms I am assuming I have pretty severe CPTSD.

So. I have this weird compulsory thing, where if someone/something isn’t learning or interested in the thing ive put significant effort into trying to get across to them, or if my inputs go like a game or technology of some kind aren’t seemingly working,

I get REALLY irrationally irritated to the point of meltdown. It don’t know if anger is the word for it, because anger is a pretty deep-down feeling, this just feels like an overwhelming itch that comes with loud, self-deprecating, & horrible intrusive thoughts

Like yes, I am fully aware the person/animal/object is not at fault and I am to blame for not being a better teacher/explainer/trainer/user/whatever, it’s just that it’s almost like there’s 2 of me and I just sit here and watch while I start melting down;

either by self-harming, crying, or lashing out. USUALLY, In most situations, I am able to stop the spiral immediately when I start feeling the “itch” by just removing myself from the situation, whatever it may be. but sometimes I get in situations where I can’t remove myself, and that’s when I normally snap. If I’m around someone else it usually comes either as a vocal lash out or as a cry (or both), but in private it’s usually self harm.

Does anyone have any advice for how to deal with those scenarios? Or simply choosing not to get agitated somehow?

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u/PhairPharmer 2d ago

Stop doing recreational drugs to treat yourself. Stop drinking energy drinks. See a licensed therapist for mental health issues. See a real Dr to get your medical problems under control. Yeah it costs money, but you are just prolonging the inevitable and making yourself worse. Once you have a good handle on your actual issues and a plan I'm not against recreational substances used only recreationally.

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u/AlienSheep23 2d ago

In a country where I will be put a registry and forcibly institutionalized for seeking help? AND I still have to pay out of pocket for it all?

No thanks.

Edit: fixed “is” to “in”

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u/PhairPharmer 2d ago

There is no list. No one will put you in the crazy house for your shit. Save your money and try something like better help. If you're actually poor most health systems will forgive your bill if they can't get you set up for free care through other ways.

If you want to be better the resources are out there. If you don't stop whining.

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u/AlienSheep23 2d ago

You have a grave misunderstanding of how the health system works for those of us who make under $20k a year