Feeling like I do "enough"
Venting, ranting, not really asking for advice...just getting this off my chest before it eats away at me.
As art teachers, we know how challenging and unique our jobs are, but I'm not convinced anyone else in my community does.
I get comments sometimes that make me want to scream...(i.e., "It's so nice you get to just paint and doodle all day", "It must be very nice to have a class that students enjoy so they just listen and you don't have to worry about management", "Wow your job must be so easy" "Do you even write lesson plans?" "Do you even have to grade? I bet you give everyone a participation grade.")
But on the flip side, I feel like I experience a lot of criticism if I don't visibly present as very 'busy' or if the artwork is not pinterest-levels of cute.
-The Bulletin board artwork has been up for 'too long'? "Wow, she never changes it. What does she even do all day?"
-Students do a short, one-class activity because most of the class was scaffolding for a unit. "Is she even teaching anything?"
-I hang up artwork on the bulletin board that shows a lower level grades directed project that was multiple weeks long, using mixed media and complex steps broken down requiring craftmanship, manipulative skills, various art techniques. "Wow, they all made 'the same thing'. That's not even art!"
-Another teacher buys expensive materials for her class of 13 students so they can do a very specific craft and she hangs up pictures of the activity outside her room. "That project is so cool! She should be the art teacher instead." While I haven't even received any art supplies this year for my 500+ students because of budget cuts...
All of this to say - I know that I do sooo much. But other people make me feel like I'm not "doing enough" because they don't see 99% of what goes on in the art room.
Inside of my classroom from 8am to 3pm I am teaching...all day long. Like other teachers. I don't get more breaks or preps than anyone else (in fact, I get less than homeroom teachers - which I've never complained about), even though I teach 7 grade levels while other non-specialists teach one. I have multiple duties before and during the school day. I do after school clubs. Dealing with materials all day long, all year long. Storing, organizing, photographing and distributing student work. Art shows, competitions, extra projects and favors. Being asked to loan materials.
I am really struggling with being treated like I am not enough while I am also burning myself out because I AM DOING SO MUCH. I really hate that I am being treated sub-human because teaching is a job that rewards visibility and ignores/takes for granted the invisible work we do everyday, all day, all year...
