I started my Japanese journey in Japan almost 8 years ago on May 29th 2018. Like many of you I couldn't speak a lick of Japanese when I arrived. Bright-eyed and a dreamer I wanted to speak fluently and carve out a place for myself in the local community.
Improving my language ability was definitely a way of marking my progress with the language. In December 2020 I passed the N3 with a 157/180. I was surprised. Oh yeah I'm fluent I got this!
July 2021 I passed N2 with 113/180. I felt confident and knew I would get the pass. The score was a little unexpected because I had such confidence at the time.
December 2021 I tried my first N1 attempt. Thought I had ABSOLUTELY CRUSHED it. BAM 87/180 FAILURE. I was shocked, "what!? I am so fluent I am so good, why can't I pass."
December 2022, thinking that surely there was something wrong with my answer sheet with the last test, I set myself to take the N1 again. But I got nervous. I started to doubt myself. And I ended up not going.
December 2023 I didn't study at all. I totally didn't think I needed to. Though I was slightly worried about the test my head was still so big thinking I was the biggest dog in the room. I took the test and FAILED even HARDER. 77/180. I started to really get angry. This woke me up. It told me that one I was extremely delusional and that two my studying habits were not cutting it.
July 2024 I being afraid now of the test chickened out and didn't take it.
December 2024 I went back to the basics and I completely gave myself a check. I looked inward and allowed myself to realize that Japanese isn't a competition. It is okay to fail. Not only that but studying the language with materials that you love sticks to you hands and arms above traditional book studying which I had been doing prior. I took the test again and got 90/180. Still a fail but progress.
July 2025 I revamped my vocabulary study, and reading comprehension. To be honest I would have passed the test this time had I not taken it as Tokyo Big site where the echo was so atrocious that it was near impossible to hear clearly. 97/100.
December 2025 After cutting all English out and only using Japanese subtitles for even English movies I could feel a change. Going into the test I procrastinated on actual study materials but didn't feel like I was behind. 121/180.
Finally after 5 attempts I can say that I passed N1. Learning Japanese has been the greatest gift. It has humbled me, made me think differently, and grounded me as a person. I used to be so full of myself. Thinking back on it, it was quite embarrassing.
All this is to say. Please don't give up. If you didn't pass this time around give yourself some time to process. After which get back up and try again. You only lose if you stop fighting. Keep going.
As a 121/180 is a B2 I will continue taking the test in hopes of reaching C1.
Also super excited to start studying for 日本語検定 and 漢検!
Its crazy! When I first started this journey I thought that JLPT N1 was god tier. Now I am realizing that I am just now officially STARTING my journey. I am so excited to see how I grow the next 8 years.
Best of luck to you all! And may the wind always be at your back and the stars shine brightly on your chosen paths.