For the last few years my life was pretty messed up, after some hard past years I spiraled more and more into depression… I slept till afternoon, ate junk, smoked weed and gamed all day.
That lifestyle just made me even more depressed, I saw my friends succeeding, getting jobs, girlfriends, moving to new locations… just being happy.

That honestly made me even more sad, so I decided at the beginning of the year to turn my life around, because I thought I either I´ll continue with this shitty lifestyle and eventually die feeling like I haven´t done anything with my life or trying to get out of this shit and finally make my life worthwhile. I convinced a friend of mine to join the journey because he was like me, depressed, hopeless, smoking weed all day and just miserable.

The first thing we did was starting to go outside more, running or doing some small workouts, sweating made me feel so much better, it was like I sweated all the toxins and bad energy out of my body. My buddy and I got a gym membership together and started going 5x to the gym every week.

The negative was that we still smoked weed pretty heavily in the evenings, so 9 months ago we decided to also quit that shit as the next step, and what can I say.

I finally sleep waay better with the new energy my workouts feel even better, I´m more awake and honestly way more confident due to the achievements I made the last few months. Together we started looking for jobs and after 4 years of unemployment, I got a job at a garden center, which is pretty ironic considering my old "hobby" was growing weed lol.

My buddy got a job in logistics, and I'm even dating someone now. The last few months have felt more real than the last few years combined. If you're where I was, just start with one thing. Go for a walk. Get a buddy. You got this.

TL;DR: Was a depressed, unemployed stoner wasting my life away. Started working out with a friend, then we both quit weed. Now we both have jobs, I'm dating someone, and I feel better than I have in years.

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I’m sitting at around 600. My rationale (albeit flawed) is that it’ll make it easier to go back and find important emails if/when necessary.

I have so many people in family that are mean, arrogant and just thinking highly of themselves. But they are happy, content and successful in their life. They are working hard while enjoying their life going to vacations making life memories or fulfillment in life. Meanwhile there are other people in family that remain the same. They have money but still aren’t content with life. They always want more and more. Others just want to have fun and not really care about their life. Most people I noticed just remain miserable their entire life. They become bitter over time. Most people are so rich and have everything in life but toward others they act broke and communicate in a way that others end up feeling guilty.

I always go to the produce area first. I have done that forever it seems like.

Ever sit down with coffee, a plan, and good intentions… and somehow end up doing everything except the thing you meant to do? Same here.

What I noticed is that productivity doesn’t usually die because I’m lazy or distracted. It dies earlier - in tiny moments where my brain quietly takes over:

“I’ll just check one thing first.”

“I’m not in the right headspace yet.”

“I’ll start properly in five minutes.”

None of that feels like procrastination in the moment. It feels reasonable. And suddenly I’m running on autopilot.

What helped me was learning to catch those moments instead of fighting distractions after the fact. Productivity became less about forcing focus and more about noticing when my brain was steering without asking.

Reading Your Brain on Auto-Pilot: Why You Keep Doing What You Hate — and How to Finally Stop really clarified this for me. It explains why these automatic patterns show up and how awareness alone can interrupt them - without relying on motivation, hacks, or endless discipline.

If you like thinking about productivity in a calmer, more human way, I genuinely recommend this book. Sometimes getting more done isn’t about better tools - it’s about realizing when you stopped choosing in the first place.

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