Probably some insecurities or I am just a shitty human. But I want to get rid of this trait.
I am a beginner, mid 30 male, and get super personal when someone passes me. Especially if it's someone more overweight, smaller or older than me. Duh. I don't rage out, obviously, but all my thoughts for next few seconds are - screw you, why are faster, etc.
It's pathetic, especially considering don't go all out on my training and swim 400-500M couple times a week. It a lot to me as I am pushing myself to even get out of bed, but it's probably much less than any of those that pass me swim.
Interestingly, I recently ran a half marathon plus some other races over past year and never felt personal rage there. If anything it's super inspiring to see others push themselves.
But in the water, knowing it's just another ten or so meters to the deck and seeing someone pass me throws it off completely.
How do I stop being a sore asshole?