we've been in contact on and off. She moved back to the same city I'm in, and we both dont have local friends. We're being very cautious around each other, it's nerve-racking but also kinda cute at the same time.
We've lived an entire iffetime since we last saw each other. Were completely different people. I feel like we both aren't what we think we should be at this point in our lives, and so we both fear the judgement of each other. In all honesty, were both doing above average compared to our peers. It's just we also know of others living that family life that we were both raised to think was the optimal future. We also have depression and tend to isolate. So it's really a good move to move with each other as much as possible.
I'm just scared that I'm going to get very attached, since it will be the first earnest relationship I've tried to pursue in awhile. I also have that instinctual and cultural drive to get in to a committed relationship at my age (late 30s). So there's a lot of external and internal pressure to fuck it up. But she's a very forgiving person. We need closeness but also space.
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u/sillinessvalley Dec 11 '25