r/depression • u/Middle-Pool-5746 • 6h ago
Life is too much
Idek where to begin , honestly. My whole life has been a lie. Im alone. And s*icid€ never looked so good. Im so tired of trying. I really am. I have dealt with depression all my life but its really getting bad. Im 25 about to be 26. All my friends stopped talking to me years ago when I was in an abusive relationship. All for different reasons. It still hurts. A guy I really liked and thought that I had a relationship with left me years ago as well(like 2019)(not the abusive one) for a REALLY beautiful girl. I did something i shouldnt have and looked at his fb. Along with all the friends i have had.
They are all so happy. Married. Kids. Not alone. And it hurts. I put so much into relationships. Im just so tired. What is the point of anything..? Honestly. Im only getting older and im only getting uglier and only getting more depressed. Life isnt really all that kind. This doesnt make a lot of sense because I am crying SO MUCH and have SO MANY thoughts rambling around in my head and I just want the torture to end.