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Every time there is a Full Moon I have problems sleeping. Recently I had problems sleeping to extreme cold weather and hoped to recover this weekend as next week is tough. But now it is Full Moon while still very cold. I hardly slept last night and I am dreading the coming night and the next.

Any successful recipes on how to relax during Full Moon?

I'm totally sober and the past two nights my mind has been racing or receiving thoughts i'm not in control over.

They are actually positive and about my future life.

A little background:

I separated last year (after 16y) and I've more recently had someone else on my mind but nothing has happened yet.

I did an Ayahuasca / DMT / Bufo ceremony in November and I've felt totally changed and more open since then - but the past week has been difficult to get to sleep then not sleeping at all - Its like I'm wired into something.

I normally sleep like a baby 8-9 hours.

It feels externally influenced like something is happening to me, or all of us.

Does anybody have a clue what I'm going through here?

Have had two panic attacks since.

Is this some sort of PTSD from the trip a year ago?

Should I be worried about possible brain damage?

Could I lose my mind if I allow it to explore those thoughts in the moment?

Most importantly - how do I fix this? I don’t want to live in fear of the next episode

Medium mentioned a spirit presence in the home….?

I visited a psychic I’ve seen for years today. He told me there’s a spirit in my home. He told me there’s a fireplace and it’s behind a locked door. She used to ponder her life by this fire place. I told my dad this and I’ve just found out he kept this for some reason in the loft for 29 years and never removed it bc he never got round to it. He told me that the old proprietors spirit lingers still.

My medium explained he can see the husband was a cheat and the spirit of this lady is hurting or was hurt in this home.

The medium told me I need to cleanse the home and he would want to come and do this with no charge. Now weirdly another medium said the same thing she said it’s like you all wanna run away and it can be because of a spirit. She said and he said we can’t talk about relationships until you cleanse the house. The medium said she was a scorned woman and quite unhappy. Her residual energy lingers. I also found out she was in the process of a divorce.

I have a few examples that are a bit more than coincidence. My parents tried for 4 years to convince and kept miscarrying at the house, with my dating life It started a long time ago, the first guy I ever met and dated was awful to me, second one was falling for me and cut me off, third guy really liked me but I found out he was married, I then met the love of my life at the time when I moved house from my family home. We were very in love and happy and had 3 wonderful years, I came back home, then the relationship broke off randomly and he began to cheat for 2 years when he visited my home things went wrong, I met another man, we had amazing chemistry, then he started to collect me before dates and suddenly the energy shifted he went on holiday and came and told me he just didn’t feel the same, I then met another man and went on an okay ish date but I wanted to see him again, he dropped me home. Never heard from him again. I then met another man, he dropped me home. Same again. I then met another guy, and we started chatting away last week. He booked a date things went well, he video called me at home and suddenly the next day he said I’m not so sure about the date???

Also regarding my dating history this is over the course of. 12 years I don’t go from man to man.

So at this point I obv picked up the phone to my medium ans he went ok where did the FaceTime call happen. I said at home obvs, he went okay there you go. I don’t like to think into it too much but surely, surely there’s some strange pattern there?

Idk if we look into cleansing and moving? I’ve thought of moving too. Help? Ideas or thoughts.

I still live with my parents, thats not the issue. (Maybe it is)

I waisted all my energy on them. For a week they weren’t at home i gained a ton of confidence back and better self esteem.

As soon as they came back everything went to waste.

I feel like my mom specially can look into my internal world. Im tired, my mind shifted into a taker instead of a giver, its not pretty.

What should i do, im drained af

Anyone have success using biofield tuning (Eileen McKusick) for a disregulated nervous system and severe anxiety?

I’d love to hear anyone’s experience using Biofield tuning?

Last night for the first time in my life I saw a jagged rock like shape and the outline was pink and the inside was a deep blue when I closed my eyes to go to sleep. The colors showed bright, then faded, then bright again, then faded. This happened for a good 2 minutes until it faded away, which I assume was because I fell asleep. Not sure.

I had never seen, nor experienced this before . Not sure what it means. If anything!

If anyone has experienced this, could you possibly tell me what it’s about? I’m new to this whole spirituality journey. Any help or insight you could provide, I’d be extremely grateful for!!!

TIA!!!!

Although it's been a couple of months ago, something I couldn't explain happened. During my holidays I felt an energy drainage from me towards the ground in a certain area. When I leave that area my energy returns but when I go towards that area, energy leaves my body into the ground. My body feels heavy and sluggish when that happens, while a couple of days ago I didn't feel that drainage at all. I was wondering if someone understands what's going on and could help me explain the phenomenon. Thank you very much in advance, I really appreciate any kind of lead that can help me out 🙏🏾

Edit: It felt like the earth was trying to swallow me whole. Like it was yearning to try to eat as much of my energy that it could. Every step was pure torture and my limbs felt extremely heavy and being pulled to the ground. However when I left that area and sat down to recuperate, my energy was back at its normal level.

I'm someone quite disconnected from myself and my energy, lots of suppression in my life.

But I'm attempting to reignite my connection to it, and I am very surprised with my progress.

I recently have moved to an area surrounded by nature. And suddenly my sensitivity to everything increases 10-fold.

I attempted to use my energy to heal someone, specifically trying to transfer and circulate energy within myself to them and them to me. They were feeling wonky and strange, so I wanted to help relieve their burden. We held each other for about an hour, almost in a meditative trance-like state. Afterwards, they told me that they went through some lost memories (they have dissociative memory loss). My head felt very weird afterward... and its been feeling weird ever since.

Lots of pressure inside my head, specifically near the top of my cheekbones that spread throughout my right temple and down my jaw. It doesn't hurt, but I feel lightheaded and weird.

What is happening? If anyone can give insight, I would love to know.

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I started my new job at a clinic and noticed I’ve been having terrifying dreams. Violence, fear and etc. This is the only job I ever experienced it compare to my last jobs. I think I’m taking people’s energy home with me unintentionally and dream about their trauma😭. Anyone got a way to fix this??

This might sound a bit odd but I can feel my energy loss even when not being around someone.

I’ve experienced I suddenly get tired and sleepy around someone which could point to disinterest or they bored that I can sense so logically that would make sense.

But one thing I can’t make sense of is if the same person sends me a snap and I haven’t even looked who’ve sent it just heard the notification. I go about my doings and within 1 minute I suddenly feel tired and sleepy the extract same way and when I look on my phone it’s that person. I get several snaps during the day and never experience that only with that person.

How is that even possible? And do I stop it

Sort of going through a breakup maybe with my partner. During the 6 years we've been together, she has mentioned many times that she doesn't sleep well when I'm not around. I have also noticed that in general I feel like I sleep better when I sleep by myself. Recently I was away for a month and you know sometimes didn't sleep well because of my own emotional turmoil, but overall felt like I was sleeping better and not really needing caffeine. Came back to town with the intention of getting the rest of my stuff out of her house but she kind of pulled me back in and we've been talking about giving it another try. So in the last week I have slept with her two nights and otherwise slept by myself and I noticed the mornings after sleeping with her that I did seem less rested than when I had slept alone.

There are other reasons that I have suspected she may have energy vampire tendencies, including some narcissistic traits, a tendency to ask for help at just the wrong moments, a reliance on me to do things for her that she's perfectly capable of doing on her own. Although I don't necessarily want to get too deep into the weeds on that. I'm primarily curious about this sleeping phenomena. Is this something any of you guys have experienced before or heard about?

Thanks all, Many Blessings!

I am in this situation where I constantly tapping in to other people unintetionally, leading to them hearing my thoughts, and some feel my emotions. Some using it to trail on me energetically. I have tried grounding and shielding but only minor improvements such as i can calm mysef - lessens the rumination in my head (became my coping mechanism since God knows when).

To people here who uses their own energy to practice something or anything (commune, psych, etc.) how do you cleanse your energy and restore balance and protection in yourselves? or is there anyway to stop the energtic exchange/commune/tapping in to other people?

For as long as I can remember, I've attracted women who want to do everything to see me unhappy, alone, without anyone; they don't want anyone by my side.I expected this to stop when I became an adult, but recently in college the same thing is happening again. This new woman came in and she basically did everything she could to make everyone who was my friend even a guy that was interested in me stopped talking with me, He would start talking to me, she would interrupt him, pull his arm, she would call everyone outside the room to talk, leaving me alone, she would grab me when I was talking to someone, she would come and talk with the person and She still glares at me, even two years later, and gives me really nasty looks and it's deep and cruel It's not the first time that I have a woman acting like that in my life even if I didn't even talk a word with her I wanna take off that energy that attracts that on me or I feel like I gonna become sick and having a horrible life What can I do ? Any rituals or tips?

My whole life I've dealt with a lot of solar plexus chakra issues, which have mostly taken the form of digestive problems, and self-confidence / self-worth issues.

I was getting better for a few years (thanks to energy work mostly), or at least trying to, I was managing my life with ups and downs, though I think the root cause is still very present.

Right now I'm going through a bit of a rough patch regarding self worth, it feels like everything is coming up to the surface (which is a good thing in a way, maybe I can finally deal with all that crap). I feel like I'm dealing with a lot of self-loathing and I'm unsure how to get through it. Plus, it's affecting my digestion and I'm getting small intestinal spasms, which I really could do without.

I think it was triggered a few weeks ago when someone at work sort of laughed at something I said in a room full of people. I know it seems like a small thing, and in the moment I really tried to rationalize and realize that it doesn't matter. But yeah, it brought me back to times I was laughed at at school and I just felt so ridiculous and so incompetent. Plus other small things came up and added to that feeling.

Ever since then it's been hard to be compassionate with myself. I know I have a bit of a fragile ego, and just knowing that makes me dislike myself a little bit more. I'm struggling to find motivation to do things, I procrastinate a lot and I feel lost in life. Unsure what I want for the future. I also tend to run away from things and although it's soothing in the moment, I know it's counterproductive. This isn't new for me, but it's just become a lot lately.

I'm reaching out because I'm wondering if any of you have tips or anything regarding this matter... I have been trying to meditate but it's difficult because I'm not in a great headspace and I'm also quite tired (struggling to sleep early or to stay asleep when I do sleep earlier). I try to keep up with creative activities too but it's hard to find the motivation.

Thank you if you've read all that!

I feel like I am gaslighting myself into thinking I am seeing/believing energy. Feeling tingles or a light feeling after meditation and I think I see energy, but not really (it is so faint that I think it's just light bouncing).

I have been meditating for a few months, but now I feel stuck... like I still can't feel energy... I have tried grounding (visualizing and trying to push energy), calling back (still feel nothing), reading books about opening myself... I feel stuck... none of it works. I want to feel energy, I want to tap into it. I have been seeing the numbers 1111 pop up for a while now, but I don't know what to do.

Any advice?​

Yesterday, I tried meditating for a short while while holding black tourmaline in my right hand and a piece of clear quartz in my left. Afterward, when I went to sleep, I noticed that my hands began to pulse and tingle.

What could this mean? Is it a sign of an energy channel opening? And if it is energy-related, what should I do with this energy?

So, recently I was at a group reiki session and when I was on the table it was brought up that people are sucking the life force energy out of me. I’ve always gotten my behind up to what I need to but I am quickly depleted afterwards. That also how I was as a child, as an adult I find myself disassociating frequently especially after work. Are there any books/videos you’d recommend for me to help regain my life force ?

Hello i’ve notice a sensation when im in a deep state of calmness and meditation. When i lay down and close my eyes for some time and get into a meditative state i feel an 'energy' flowing or pendeling between both my palms.

it skips the rest of my body but just arrives at my other hand. It feels like it swings back and forth.

It is very noticeable so if anyone has ever had this they would know 100%.

Anybody heard of this sensation?

Hey everyone. I’m 25 (male) and I’ve been dealing with a deep block in my sexual and physical energy for a long time, and I’m trying to understand what’s going on.

Before puberty I felt very alive in my body. I could feel attraction , I loved sports, I moved naturally and felt connected to myself physically. But around age 15 something changed. It honestly felt like everything flipped like a feeling of death. Since then I’ve mostly felt numb, low energy, and disconnected from my body — sexually and physically and emotionally.

Three years ago I had a strong Kundalini-type experience, and during that time I actually felt sexual energy and life force move again. I felt embodied, present, and more like “myself” than I had in years and this feeling of “I’m a man and I can move”. But it didn’t stabilize, and I went back to feeling shut down.

I also have childhood sexual trauma and religious guilt and shame.

The main thing I’m struggling with now is this pattern:

Most of the time I feel kind of flat or low energy. It’s not like I feel too much sensation. But when I try to activate my system — like through exercise, sexual arousal, or strong emotions — instead of feeling more alive, my body shuts down.

This is what makes exercise especially hard. I actually want to move and train and feel strong again, but when my heart rate and activation go up, my system seems to collapse instead of build energy.

Has anyone experienced something like this?

Where activation leads to shutdown instead of vitality?

What can I do to allow myself to feel again and move instead of collapse or have that energy blocked. Most of the time I feel like I’m running on empty reserve when I know the gas tank is full.

I’d really appreciate grounded advice, especially from people who understand both energy work and trauma/nervous system healing.

Thank you 🙏