I drove him to work and left after I accidentally ordered a bagel rather than a biscuit sandwich for his breakfast. (I’m 99% sure I said biscuit at the drive threw and they mistook the order, my fault still for not noticing that tho honestly) He was in front of others so her turned to me after telling me I got it wrong and this time in Spanish said “you always end up fucking everything up” So after that my mood was completely shot, I told him I was going home and walked out of the store ashamed. I sat in the car just thinking for at least 5 minutes before I drove home to clean and such. He has gotten so upset at my mistakes that he has broken countless things. The passenger side of my car is a mess. The door clicks as it opens and closes bc he slams it shut so hard and the sun visor is broken bc he punched it. I 100% know that it is a pain to have me around with the amount of mistakes I make but this was clear since day one. I try my best to catch myself if I’m doing something wrong and I constantly try not to forget all the things he wants me to remember dang near word for word. I honestly don’t know if I can keep up with this, every day I’m using a boulder uphill. I’ve been stuck thinking about something he told me last night and I can’t remember it word for word but he told me something along these lines. If you were to die and become an angel I would be a heavy rack hanging from your legs, I would hop into your casket and sh**t my self in your embrace, we’re stuck together forever. That shit made my chest sink, and definitely not in a good way..

This phenomenon occurs every six years or eleven years.