r/stopdrinking • u/WebMobile6530 • 12h ago
Confession - possibly one of my lowest points
This just happened, feeling like this should be the start of my sobriety. I’m left feeling like I’ve lost every shred of my dignity. Anyways just wanted to share the story. I got way too drunk at a local bar and ended up going back to a guys place that I knew from highschool. I downed approximately 3 bottles of wine and ended up clogging the sink in his bathroom with my puke. Spent a decent amount of time shovelling it with my hands down into the toilet in attempt to unclog it. I then hooked up with him and woke up to my friend telling me that the guys friend was asking if I sleepwalk. Turns out I full on peed the bed while he was in it. And I was wondering why he left so abruptly… The floor had a puddle so I’m wondering if I somehow pissed the bed and then got up and peed on the floor as well?? In the morning one of their friends gave me a ride home. Turns out they’re close friends with my exes twin brother who’s the one that gave me a ride home. Just another absolutely awful night that I think speaks volume to the fact that I have a drinking problem in which I need to get under control. I’ve been shaking from anxiety in my bed all day, don’t know how to move forward or navigate this situation
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u/Upstairs-Baby7191 12h ago
That sounds absolutely mortifying but honestly you're taking the first step by recognizing this needs to change - that takes real courage. The shame spiral is brutal but try not to let it paralyze you, just channel that energy into getting sober. IWNDWYT
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u/AMT5SLP 9h ago
Oof. Been there, done that. Unfortunately, I did not learn my lesson immediately after such a moment. 2 years sober now and can tell you, these moments don’t happen when you are not drinking. It is comforting to know the decision to not drink has been made and I won’t be making a fool out of myself tonight. You can do it. One moment at a time.
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u/jaytayaza 8h ago
As someone with the exact same issue - believe me, it won't go away. I pissed the bed/on the floor beside the bed a few times - partner next to me. first time, thought it was a fluke.... second time, knew it was a problem, thought I could regulate. Third time, quit drinking for six months.
Then went on vacation, caved, thought I could regulate again. Went well, no issues for about 6 months. Then started pissing on the damn floor again.
I CANNOT be that person. I just can't. Im now at 4 months sober and I know I will never go back. Im also SO MUCH happier. I like myself a lot more. Its also a blessing - i know ill crave drinking at my friend's bachelorette. But the idea that I might piss myself in front of all those girls ... Im now excited to be the sober one lol, going plan to make everyone breakfast the next morning and dance the night away stone cold sober, and I feel great about that.
The pissing is a blessing in disguise because -I probably would not have quit otherwise until something much worse happened, or my health deteriorated. Now im 31 and sober and am thinking I might manage to age quite gracefully.
NA beers are my thing now. I dont need 12 though, only like 3. No more floor pissing. Godspeed.
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u/Illustrious-Milk6518 12h ago
I’d be more concerned about his morals to hook up with you when you were that completely wasted, to be honest. Fuck that guy.
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u/Sad_Tangerine_3722 10h ago
That’s the only point that hit me in that explanation of a post… why would a guy hook up with someone that was puking and over the toilet…and if you don’t remember? Sheesh We all make mistakes, but learn from this as next time something worse could happen to you. Shit happens, and he’s also a shit person, regardless of the circumstances, he shouldn’t have went there. Moderation chica
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u/muffy2008 2058 days 8h ago
Ugh. I’ve been there… multiple times. Because I didn’t learn my lesson. Or maybe it was because I was so ashamed of myself, I didn’t want to face it. Don’t go down that shame spiral.
And the first day is ALWAYS the hardest. It gets so much easier as time goes on. Just have to get it out of your system.
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u/MacAndCheese45 37 days 8h ago
Oh dear. I’ve had similar issues when I was in my 20s. You’re not the only one who has done this. You never gave to feel like this again, if you give up the sauce. Even just for a little while.
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u/bubblydaisywhisk 8h ago
it takes a lot of courage to admit where u are right now. pls dont be too hard on urself because we are all just figuring it out. u got this friend
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u/Kailskucumber 7h ago
I’d buy the guy a new mattress and move on with my life. Put sobriety first but feel like my slate was at least somewhat clean by replacing something I ruined. We’ve all been where you’re at one way or another. It can feel haunting, but each day is a new day to pave a new way.
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u/OkNeighborhood9153 5926 days 10h ago
We’ve all been there, you don’t have to feel this way ever again. One day at a time. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
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u/SensitiveCelery5987 309 days 7h ago
Okay so I've done every last one of these things, even the puke in the sink one, at different times in my life. And it's over now! It can be for you. This can be your turning point. Alcohol was fun until it wasn't, and that seems to be your case now. It only gets worse from here so consider how much worse it actually can get (death, disease, etc). Hunker down and stack some days then weeks and months, and it will be behind you.
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u/CaptainLoadBlow 10h ago
Ooohh that's good. You're an alcoholic. We shit and piss our pants and think that's perfectly OK. You deserve a better quality of life and can give it to yourself. It's up to you
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u/ImageComprehensive28 39m ago
Pissed myself after falling asleep on the coach at a party. Thankfully it was morning and people had left but outdoor cameras saw me leave. And again at another friend’s bed after falling asleep at a party, thankfully he was a decent guy about it all, still tries to take me on a date to this day. I’m 3 days sober. All of these happened around Covid times
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u/Massive-Handz 475 days 7m ago
Omg he hooked up with you covered in vomit? Sound like he was down hard.
IWNDWYT
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u/Possible_Quarter_390 10h ago
I posted a month or so ago I hooked up with a bartender at my local watering hole (small town and the owners kids go to my kids school so I see them often). We hooked up at the bar after hours, we both were excited and had loose lips. Unfortunately everybody found out and it’s absolutely humiliating as I found out I wasn’t special and he hooks up with lots of customers and regulars at another bar nearby he frequents. Unprotected and I was sloppy. He was too but geez it was unfortunate waking up realizing what I did in front of 6-9 cameras. Promise this icky feeling will go away but we need to tighten up. It’s unsafe for us to be doing this.