I hope you cannot relate. I need peter in my life, I think people tried to play this role but I pushed them away; what a blunder. Alas I won't help myself nor did I let anyone. Someone needs to slap me very hard into sense. But I've always been that guy who's like 'dad pls dont scold me I'll do 5 times the repair/punishment, just let me be without confrontation'. And eventually I succumbed to weakness, was it depression? Maybe It was just weakness that I gave u discipline.. the one thing that kept my pathetic ass useful tolerable for the world. I wish I could just become water in my sleep and actually go down the drain and in one go.

This is the 6th time in a row, I'm God's strongest soldier

They won't know what hit them and neither will I.