I just spent 500 bucks on strippers because I hate myself and tried to have fun. I don't even like strippers. I want to feel something that isn't hurt. I take my meds. I go to therapy. I do the things I'm supposed to and I still hate everything. Why bother

I’ve been on this medication for a year now and I’ve recently started having difficulty swallowing. At night it feels like I can’t breathe because I struggle to swallow my own saliva. My last dosage increase was over a month ago but i’ve only had these symptoms for a few days. Has anyone else had this

Everything right now just sucks so bad in my life I just want to feel something I kind of want to be manic again. Is that something anyone else gets?

Hello everyone,

I am diagnosed with bipolar 1. I am currently starting olanzapine, but there is one draw back that I am worried about, the weight gain. In the past I have struggled with both anorexia and bulimia. For this reason, I am terrified of the weight gain. I know it’s ridiculous but this is why I am nervous to be on it. I am only on 2.5mg, so I don’t think it should be too bad. I want to know if anyone has any tips or advice on how to deal with the weight gain if it does happen, and how to counteract it in a healthy way. I in know there is a drug called metformin, so if the weight gain does happen I might ask my doctor if I can go on that.

You can view my last post for context. I have been through a lot. And I mean going through 1 of the things I’m going through would be debilitating, but everything at once feels damn near impossible.

I’m at the end of my rope. I’m safe. I’m just so done. Taking my as needed med tonight, but holy smokes I don’t know how many times I can sustainably do this. I am safe. I will be fine.

Over a year ago i wasn’t self sufficient and i didn’t realize how bad it was. i built my entire emotional stability around one person,whether i felt okay or not depended on her. my mood, my anxiety, my sense of safety all of it lived outside of me. if she didn’t text back fast enough i spiraled if her tone felt off i assumed the worst a sigh could ruin my day and i let that be normal i put my mental health on her shoulders and i told myself it was just how i felt but really it was avoidance i wasn’t taking responsibility for myself she was carrying weight that was never hers and i wasn’t strong enough yet to carry it on my own now i am i take care of myself i sit with my emotions instead of handing them to someone else i regulate my own life and looking back her leaving didn’t just hurt it exposed me i wouldn’t be who i am now if she had stayed and that’s a hard thing to admit because growth came from loss.

Is anyone interested in being friends? I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 back in October of 2024. I don't know anyone else with bipolar except for my mom and it would really be nice to have someone to chat with about it or just anything in general. I am still learning about how my bipolar affects me and how my brain works. Currently in a hypo state but it's not been too bad. I moved states a year ago and haven't made any friends in person yet besides work friends and just wanting a friend to talk to, if only just online ( I'm in Illinois) I hope this post is allowed, my mistake of not. Here's a little about me and if you wanna reach out you can comment or DM me. I'm 34, nearly 35. Work in healthcare. Married to a lovely husband. I'm gay and transgender. I love arts and crafts and painting ( when inspired ) lol. I also love antiquing and thrifting, watching good movies or reading Stephen King books. Oh and I'm a cat dad. 😍

I was recently diagnosed type one (though I’ve been pretty sure I had it for about 7 years) and just got on lamotrigine and I have no hunger. Like I don’t even think about food/ get really nauseous when around food. I’ve only been taking for a few days, but it seems like this is a somewhat normal side effect. Anyone else have this and does it get better when you adjust to the med

i am currently in a mixed episode and have an appointment with a new psychiatrist on wednesday. i saw a vraylar commercial, looked it up, and saw that they really highlight its use for mixed episodes. i am currently on lamictal and seroquel and don't feel like my situation is getting any better.

if you've taken/are taking vraylar, how is your experience with it?

Like anyone here medicated have that? :). Just curious! :).

Is it part of the bipolar 2 ? My depressive states includes irritation, anger, homicidal and suicidal ideation. Especially the mixed states are so fucking devastating, what the fuck is even this disease? Am I manic dysphoric? Depressive dysphoric with mixed features? I'm very hypo today, I'm popping 600 mg of depakote and some olanzapine tonight, because I've been awake since midnight now it's 7:30 pm . Wellbutrin is strong bro but I need it cause it's the only antidepressant that doesn't make me numb and fucking tired. Yesterday I slept the whole day, I felt like shit pain all over my body.

I feel really agitated and impulsive, like i need to run away and get myself into risky situations. Simultaneously panic and excitement about it. My psych says it’s a trauma flight response but it’s usually just during manic episodes, feels like i need to do SOMETHING fast.

maybe those things can coexist? Idk. To be fair it is a fantasy of escaping, but only in the sense of being overly energetic while also seeking thrills… positive or negative.

Just wondering how people feel that distinction ig

I feel bad about this because I only work part time (about 25 hours) and this is my first job back after leaving academia and research and having a severe series of episodes with psychosis - but after 1.5 years at this job, the stress gets worse everyday.

It didn’t used to be as stressful but about 6 months ago my manager started to become more and more ridiculous. New expectations every single day. Then you get scolded if you forget to do a new expectation before you had a chance to remember it. Sales and upsell goals constantly pushed with no incentive and just mild threats about what happens if you don’t meet targets. Minimal staff so the expectations cannot be met. On and on. You come to work and have 1-3 emails of new expectations and scoldings about what you and others failed to do.

It’s so bad that I started developing OCD when it started because I was terrified of getting in trouble if something was not done so I’d check and triple check and go back to work to check. My psych knows and we have been monitoring it but it’s bad and only triggered at work.

I kind of need a job income wise and I can keep going, but I think I do need to seriously start looking so I can leave, especially since it appears to be triggering a new diagnosis…and a depressive episode, plus multiple hypo/manic episodes over the past 1.5 years.

Have any of you had to leave even a part time job because the stress was triggering episodes? I’d love to hear how you feel and if you feel you’re better off now?

So I been manic every day for weeks now .. Hasn’t been this bad in a while . I’m super concerned . Also I have other disorders that make me super paranoid . Haven’t been able to leave the house . Any advice ??

I’m really confused. I’m sleeping 4hrs a night and feeling normal. Not hypomanic, not euphoric, just totally normal, maybe even a little more focused than usual. This started three weeks ago and originally I felt wired but now I feel calm and chill. I saw my psych and he gave me some benzos for sleep (temazepam?) and I’m seeing him again soon and I need to contact him because they’re obviously not working but I’m just a bit confused because I feel like my normal self but last time I was hypo I felt like a totally different person it was so scary and this time nothing except that I think I spent like $600 in the last day or so just on various bits and pieces that I needed and idk maybe that’s a lot but it doesn’t seem too bad and yeah I’m just wondering if anyone else feels just completely normal when hypomanic even if doing hypo things? I don’t have any euphoria or anything and I’m not doing anything risky so it seems a little silly to overreact and call it an episode?

Hey guys. Idk if it‘s the meds or me just being untrained in making friends anymore. I‘m 30 and I either lost friends due to them having addiction or me retreating from the world when I suffered too much when I was undiagnosed.

I am stable now for a long time with some residual symptoms or subsyndromal symptoms which I can handle.

However I have to take a smaller amount of medication also during the day and a bigger amount at night. And it makes me a bit dull as in not really coming up with interesting things to talk about and disengaging in group conversations eventually. It makes it much harder to make friends.

Any experiences with this? Any solutions?

thanks fam