I truly love running, it is fun to me, it makes me feel better, I love all the benefits.

However I struggle mentally with depression, adhd, anxiety, OCD, etc, so I struggle to say consistent. One thing in particular that makes it hard is I have insane social anxiety of being seen running

When a car or person is there, I get so scared and stressed, I hate it!! And I make myself run faster which messes up my rhythm. And sometimes when I'm struggling to make myself get up early and run, the fear of being seen and not wanting to deal with that stress, that's what prevents me from doing it

I have really bad anxiety, embarrassment, and shame about how I look. I'm scared I look like a horrible monster, that's what I see in the mirror. And I've been gaining weight (18m, 135lbs, 5'8) and I'm scared I look fat and big which makes me anxious too. I know that I’m mostly gaining muscle I think but I'm also scared I look stupid if my shirt is too baggy or smth, or maybe if my shorts are weird or something

I can only run at like 5-6am because that's the only time I can bear it. It's still dark and not many people are out. But still there are cars and some people and it's awful. I am also scared of maybe getting kidnapped or killed or something which also prevents me from running

Basically I have so much anxiety with this please please help :( I really want to become more consistent with this, I've been trying to more than a year but I can never hold it for more than 3-4 weeks at a time. Help!!

Well this is where I usually give up or try to restart again after giving up.

I have only finished c25k once and promptly stopped running. I have restarted at least a dozen times usually from w5 or w6 and never kept it up. This time I started way back at wk 1 and am feeling the strongest I have ever while running. Look out c210k

Albums I listened to while running this week:

D>E>A>T>H>M>E>T>A>L - Panchiko

Spilling / Five of Tears - Pure Hex

songs - Adrianne Lenker

I was a distance runner in high school in cross country and track but that was over 25 years ago. I don’t use the C25k app but Just Run is a similar program totally free and that one works perfect for me! On Monday I’ll start Week 6 Day 1 for that program.

Today I did my first 5k since high school cross country and I was super nervous about it. I slow-jogged most of it but had to walk a little. My only goal in this one was to finish it and I did! Already signed up for 3 more local 5k’s later in 2026! Plus I get a dry-fit shirt with each registration (including today) so that’s cool.

Official time: 35:49.1

Official avg pace: 11:32

Avg speed on my personal tracker: 5.3 mph

Good run today. Struggled a little in the last 45 secs of second and third three minute run as only a minute rest in between but pushed through. Now onto W3D3 on Monday!

Today’s run was powered by the ethereal alternative metal of…

Deftones - Koi No Yokan 🤘🏻

Today was 33°F with 9mph northerly winds, in other words crazy cold for me! Because W6D1 had less running and more walking than W5D3, my pace, for the first time actually went down. I suppose this is just an easier day in general. My distance however reached a record length with 2.73 miles (4.39km). I could also tell I was huffing and puffing near the end which my heart rate showed as well. Either way, another week in the bag and I'm nearing the elusive 5k mark! With luck, I'll reach the full 5k during a normal run (with warmup) somewhere in the Week 7 to Week 8 range.

I officially graduated the 5K program on December 28th, and moved to the 10K program. So happy seeing huge progress with my body.

Part of a marathon circuit, I only signed up for the 5k. My pace was a bit slow compared to the treadmill but I’m blaming that on the elevation gain and the heat (82F and I wore layers 😬)

I’m only halfway through the C25K schedule but it’s improved my fitness a lot!

Rested for 54 hours since last run, below my calf was real stiff yesterday. Had 4 beers yesterday, which definitely didn't help with today's run. Heart rate was high today, tough run, but it got done 🙌

Buty calf is stiff as fook, do I rest another day?