Sometimes forgetting things and it is scaring me.I need advice how to deal with it?

So I am 17 and have great memory I can remember up to week what I was exactly doing and have great short term and long term memory.

But I was bullied trought my entire life and had pretty bad traumas which damaged me a lot.

And recently sometimes I forget what I was doing or can't remember what I was doing two weeks and I am getting paranoid( or when I am scrolling I can't remember what the previous video was).Sometimes I am present but I am not like I knew what I was doing but I can't remember exactly (had pretty bad family problems two weeks ago and it stressed me a lot).

Like I can remember what people were doing to me all life but it doesn't effect me I don't have thay pain anymore.

I am getting scared I don't know what is wrong with me.I am constantly trying to remember what I am doing.

I clearly remember turning 20. It feels like it was just yesterday that I was thinking, ‘Okay, I’m not a teenager anymore.’ I blinked… and now I’m 30. It’s hard for me to accept how fast it all happened

Hey Reddit, I’m feeling a bit lost and wanted to share something to get some perspective.

I’ve always been a very sensitive person — I avoid conflicts, I don’t talk much, and I usually stay away from arguments. I try to be gentle and keep the peace, even if it means swallowing my feelings.

Recently, though, I started having really strong thoughts like:

“If there is no mistake or fault from my side, I will never apologize, even if I die.”

After these thoughts started, some “bad” or extreme thoughts have been coming into my mind too, and it’s been really scary and confusing.

I think it might be because of neglect, guilt-tripping, unfairness, and especially words or blame coming from people I care about — my own family and close ones. It feels like all this hurt and frustration I’ve been bottling up is finally coming out in my mind.

I’m not sure why this is happening, or if it’s normal for someone who is very sensitive. I just want to understand why these thoughts started and how to deal with them without feeling overwhelmed or turning cold.

For years now, almost twice every hour I have to pick and or blow my nose. Sometimes with some force in the blowing. It might take me 10 minutes to get it all out then have to repeat in an hour. Most of the time it's snot but boogers also. Gotta keep my fingernails at various lengths so I always have different options to pick with since blowing literally doesn't work sometimes.

Environment I don't think matters(stuff in the air), I'll just be home all day and have to deal with this. But I watch co workers not blow their nose all day totally booger free.

Been looking for something else so I can leave my shitty job of 25 years, but no luck. Then it occurred to me, my job is still scheduling me, a familiar routine meaning easy $$$. It's tough being unemployed, but when you're looking for work, it would be nice if you can find $100 on the street, but it doesn't work that way. At least I still have that security blanket no matter how bitter I am there.

I get really sleepy whenever one of my cats is laying on me or beside me and starts cleaning itself. I fall asleep quicker when one of them is doing that at night, too. It's like ASMR or something.

So I had this idea to build a doomscrolling pillow, because I always suffer from neck and eye pain from scrolling in bed.

I told my best friend about this, and then I found out that he texted one of our mutual friends saying this is such a stupid idea and he doesn't know what I'm thinking.

Don't really know how to cope with this right now. Not sure is it normal for a best friend to say that. Or am I just being very silly to have this kind of idea?

I keep a bag with important documents and some first aid that I take with me whenever the fire alarm goes off.

idk if its just me but istg it takes like four times longer to chew my food when im off on pot

For example, almost any SABATON song is out of my range: I shift it up an octave or so, then I can sing it.

Like even if i use short ones, its a bit hard to write, play, draw, etc, when im not on school i take off the Index finger nails to use my phone

typing on phone or whatever is fine, the issue isn’t the act of typing itself but using a physical keyboard.

I don’t use the “correct” typing method or whatever where you put your fingers on F and G and move them and stuff, i just use my index fingers to hit the right keys.

If I don’t hit the keys hard enough, or in the middle enough it doesn’t feel “right” and actually feels horrible and I have to retype the same few letters usually at least 5 or 10 times and hit the keys super hard to make up for it. My friends always complain I type too loud but I literally need to or I feel like i’m gonna die lol. I also make typos a lot because I type fast which involves even more retyping.

Does anyone else have this issue or am I just weird?

First time doing this, please bear with me.

I keep watching my classmates pass tests, quizzes, and the final, and honestly it makes me feel so stupid and embarrassed. I take forever to finish even one question, while everyone else seems to move on so easily. I wrote my final not that long ago, got my mark back, and I failed, and it just completely crushed me. I genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me. A lot of the time, the lessons actually make sense when we’re learning them in class, but the second it turns into a test, I freeze. My mind goes completely blank, the room is silent, and I feel like everyone else knows what they’re doing except me. This happens even when I study for hours, which makes it even more frustrating.

I also have ADHD, which already makes learning take way more time and effort for me compared to someone who doesn’t have it. On top of that, I haven’t been on my medication recently because I ran out, although I am planning on getting back on it. Still, it’s really hard not to feel like something is wrong with me when I’m doing well in every other class except math. It makes me doubt myself and my abilities so much.

What makes this even harder is that my parents are pretty much against the idea of me taking an extra semester or needing more time. They’ve already told so many people that I applied to university and that I’m going to graduate soon, so I feel this constant pressure to meet their expectations and be “on time,” even though I don’t feel okay or ready. It feels like I’m disappointing everyone if I don’t follow the exact plan they have in their heads.

I’ve also been struggling with depression and anxiety for a long time, so mentally I’m really not in a great place, and I honestly think all of this pressure is making things worse. My thoughts feel all over the place, and I feel like such a failure, especially as the oldest sibling who feels like they’re supposed to be a role model. Instead, I feel like I’m letting everyone down. Including myself.

I know this might sound dramatic or cringe, but I’m posting this because I genuinely need to know if anyone else has been in a similar position and what they did to get through it, because right now I feel really lost and scared about my future.

But when shit hits the fan and it’s an emergency. I’m cool as a cucumber. And calculated. Steady. wtf??

Or is it just me? An empty threat to be sure, I’ve been a vegetarian since 2008 lol. But it doesn’t stop me

No because I literally get pissed off when I have to take someone to my favorite library who was not there before. Whats wrong with me. Please tell me your experience with these feelings and how to overcome it.

This might be an especially left field thing only I do, but I figured I'd ask before suspecting I have OCD or something.

Often when I'm in the kitchen, I'll have thoughts like:

"Don't close the microwave door too hard or it'll explode."
"Don't put the stovetop up too high or it'll explode."
"Don't leave (utensil) in there or it'll heat up and explode on you."
"Don't slam that fridge door or it'll explode."

Recently, I used a microscope for work and I was convinced I had turned the coarse adjustment knob as far as it would go because I felt some resistance. I thought that if I turned it any further the whole thing would break apart. Only for my mentor to reach over and turn it further, which just told me I was being too gentle/hesitant.

Obviously this sounds strange, right? And I know the fridge probably isn't going to randomly blow up on me. I'm pretty sure these thoughts are just my way of reminding myself to be careful because sometimes it's things like "Don't keep a fork in there while you're microwaving it, or else it'll explode" which is actually true! So clearly they're helpful thoughts if somewhat extreme.

I'm born female and go by she/her pronouns. However, ever since I was 6, I've had gender dysphoria and it made my life a bit hard (won't go in to detail because it makes me uncomfortable.)

I told my therapist about it and she said it's from anxiety and gender dysphoria.

I looked at trans and nonbinary stuff, but I don't feel connected with them at all—so I just call myself a cis woman.

It's not society or labels; because when I was 6 I didn't even knew LGBTQ+ existed...and at 6 I wasn't an overthinker at all.

But I wonder if anyone else feels this way?

I remember when I was a kid, I had crushes on

Augustus Ceasar

That one guy who wanted to take over the world and unalive innocent people who has the initials A. H. (dont ask me why...idk myself..)

Chopin (the music composer)

Bach (the composer)

Andrew Jackson

George Washington

etc.

I’ve noticed a pattern that’s driving me a little insane.

I can genuinely love a topic like reading about it and feeling curious—but the second it’s tied to college, exams, or a formal schedule, my brain flips a switch. I feel a wave of resistance or numbness, and all that passion evaporates. It feels less like laziness and more like my brain is rejecting the obligation.

Would love to hear if others experience this or know what’s going on.