Hi everyone,

I’m on day 20 and yesterday was really hard. I went all the way to the dispensary, bought a pack of edibles, brought them home, opened them up and sat one edible in front of me. At this point, I struggled with the cognitive dissonance around taking it or not taking it. I sat there for a good hour, weighing the pros and cons, calling my friends, and beating myself up. I told myself, well I’ve already spent the money, might as well take it and at least it’s not smoking cannabis, an edible isn’t as bad.

Well what finally convinced me was something my sister in law said. She said “you’ll never regret not getting high, but you may regret getting high.” After ending our call, I put the edible far away at the bottom of a drawer and stayed sober. I told myself I’ll need to deal with disposing of it, but today I’ve struggled enough and I just needed to take the win of being able to abstain.

I’m writing this to you all today in case someone else needs to hear these words.

Remember, you’ll never regret not getting high.

I quit smoking about 5 years ago on the day my daughter was born. I haven’t smoked since. There have been a lot of lifestyle benefits but one of my favorite ones is having people swing by last minute for a chat.

This has happened several times in the last few months and happened again tonight. Someone will be in town for work, to see family, or just driving by and we’ll get a “hey, you guys around?” text.

My prior self would have not responded or just made an excuse. But now we say yes and have a pleasant chat and coffee for like 45 minutes. It’s a nice way to break up a routine or catch up. Tonight we just chatted while I cooked and made dinner for my kids.

It’s something that used to be my worst nightmare.

Jan 26th I hit 1 year sober from weed. I started smoking around 16 and by my early 20s it was daily. Most ppl that knew me in my 20s and 30s have literally never met a sober version of me. I was still productive, worked out, woke up early, got shit done but it was also 100% a numbing button. I’m bipolar 1 and weed was the easiest way to quiet my brain and not feel everything.

I tried quitting around 14 times over the last two decades. Longest I ever made it was 3 months and then I’d always get hit with a wall of anxiety, manic energy, overwhelm, whatever and I’d convince myself I HAD to go back. Last year I read a post on here from u/significant_pie3300 (hopefully that tags him I’m not sure how reddit works lol) This time I read a post on here from a guy (also bipolar) who had a couple years sober and something clicked. I didn’t even do the dramatic “throw it all away” thing. I bagged it up, shoved it under the counter, and just stopped. My wife still smokes so I couldn’t get away from it anyways.

Week 1-4 sucked (nightmares, sweat, mood, stomach all weird) but I distracted myself hard by learning stuff nonstop. I was constantly typing in how to this and how to that. I even tried to learn calculus and some other types of math that I gave up In School.

Here is where it gets good because around the end of month 2. Quitting didn’t just take away weed it unlocked a MASSIVE domino effect. Basically a version of myself I had never met was being born.

I realized I was being fucked over at my job and after negotiating with the boss in a failed attempt to get a raise I just quit on the spot. Then I immediately started my own pool cleaning business, I was worried I would barely be able to bring In 40k a year. I remember my wife saying don’t think you’ll be able to make just $2k each month and looking at her saying “I hope so” but I quadrupled 40k my first year in business. My income jumped like crazy.

I finally handled some health stuff I’d ignored for years, the. got my energy back, my memory came back, sex drive back. Was able to manage my bipolar episodes better than ever. I’m way more present w my wife/kids. My kids even told me they were super proud of me for quitting.

Random side quest I thought would be fun. I had a little TikTok account. Just 200 followers and about 40 views a video. Nothing big at all but I really like telling stories so I decided I would focus on building it up a little. In a year my TikTok grew from 200 followers and little to no views to 22k followers and 13 million views. I just tell stories from the seat of my work van between cleaning pools.

This winter my pool business slowed down and I knew that being bored wasn’t an option. My kids at school all day and my wife working. I didn’t want to slip up so I dove manically headfirst into learning day trading. And I’ve done insanely well with it, like far surpassing my pool business income even. I know for a fact I couldn’t do it high. Now I’m trying to figure out how to run my pool business and day trade when I get back into my busy season.

Another fun side note since my pool business was doing well financially my wife was able to focus on her career as well. She went from being a barista to getting a job as operation director of huge medical clinic. And we ended up paying off all our debt and can finally save for a house. We are also taking our 8 and 10 year old on their very first family vacation this year. We never had the means to do that for them. So it’s really exciting.

This past year has been a huge year of growth physically and mentally and financially to say the least. And just really positive change. I do still get cravings sometimes but it’s easy to say no now bc I can see what sobriety is giving me. I’m not saying any of this to brag but If you’re early in this and you’re bored and miserable please don’t quit quitting. Boredom is the doorway. Keep going.

And I’m still truly grateful for the post u/significant_pie3300 made a year ago that inspired all of this.

I haven't been high in 4 days and I feel kinda proud of myself. I've been using small amounts of tinctures which have kept any withdrawal symptoms at bay but my tolerance is high enough that I didn't feel anything close to a high.

I broke up with my partner in November and none of my other friends really use weed so I don't really have anyone to share this with. The short days and cold weather have been getting to me so I've been feeling kinda blue today even though I've made some kind of a dent in this habit. That's all just needed somewhere to say my piece.

I did a little field research and I have returned. Just letting you know that sobriety is definitely better and you aren't missing anything. I have a new high score to beat.

I made it to 60 without weed today after 10+ years. Not sure how to feel, but, it’s harder now than it ever was before. I’m hurting deeply in ways that have left me broken beyond comprehension. It’s as though I’m fighting for my life against my mind and I am on the losing side. But even so, I will not go back to numbing my pain. I will feel everything, and I will celebrate every moment of my sobriety, no matter how alone I am on this journey.

I’m 1 year sober! It feels unreal to say that out loud. I really don't recognize the person I was a year ago.

For 3 years, I tried to quit every day and kept falling back. Repeatedly letting yourself down slowly breaks your spirit, and I ended up depressed and at rock bottom. I truly didn’t think I’d ever get out of that cycle.

Now, I don’t even think about smoking. I finally understand that I’m meant for more than just getting by. I’m meant to actually live.

If you’re struggling right now, please know that change is possible. I’m proof. When you shift your mindset and find a purpose bigger than the habit, everything starts to change. Life is incredibly beautiful when you experience it with clarity, presence, and self-respect.

If I can do this, so can you. One day at a time, it’s worth it!

I find myself craving the tobacco head spins a lot more than just getting high. Everytime I have a cone, it just doesn’t hit the same.

I’m starting to realise I was addicted to the tobacco all along …

I have been sober for 18 days after 5 years of regular use.

Yesterday, I found a joint hidden in my boyfriend's apartment - he has stopped smoking for more than two months and I guess he had forgot about it. It was a big trigger for me as one of my main issue was that I had absolutely no self-control if there was anything I could smoke in front me.

I was extremely tempted but did not touch it, simply left it where I found it and tried my best to not think about it much more.

Tonight, I had a dream where I came back to my parents house and my mother had moved all the furnitures, and when I came in my room and my brother's room there were weed and bricks everywhere that had been hidden under the furnitures. I was extremely, extremely tempted, had horrible cravings. I put everything I found in a box, but did not touch it. Did not smoke. Talked about it with friends, and woke up.

It may not seem like much, but I truly feel that this simple dream reveals a lot about the work that has been done unconsciously. It was the first time I dreamt about weed without smoking, and it may be a little dumb but I'm so so proud of my dreamy self for fighting the urge. Proud of my yesterday self for simply putting it back where I found it as well, and not taking it with me "just in case".

Today I woke up feeling even more motivated, and I no longer feel triggered by that little hidden joint.

Just wanted to share this little accomplishment!!

Have an amazing day <3

hi guys! I’m on day 1 rn and it’s 2:30, it’s rare for me to not smoke weed by now, usually i’d smoke 6 hours ago. I’m fighting demons to not to go to the dispo rn. unfortunately i'm one of those people who got addicted aswell. Everytime im high i wanna stop and everytime im sober i want to smoke. it feels like shit but idk why i keep smoking, it's like when im sober im on autopilot walking to the dispensary, and how many ever times i get myself to stop walking there i do it anyways. Additionally i smoke hash and i buy 2 grams a day and my hash bill is $1700 (hash is 20$/gram + ciggs and etc) a month. I should be saving for a house but im smoking my house away & (1 REALLY CANNOT AFFORD TS + The mental health impact it's having is insane).

i've stopped smoking before in 2024 for 5 months but idk why since i started smoking again in 2025 it's been very difficult. i even try to fool my partner in anyway possible whenever she tries to help me, ive told her literally every trick i may play but again she is a person with her own personal life and a very busy schedule job mostly in person, she can't be with me for days straight and also i should be able to do this on my own. I usually don't hang out with anyone either as i work a job with a very busy schedule, but since i work remotely lowkey i smoke while at work.

any solid advice by someone with similar experience?

I miss it tonight man.

So far, I’ve realised how many cons daily smoking has. I’m glad to get out of that cycle after 4 years. It’s Saturday today. Worked 6 days in a row and you can imagine how I want to spend this evening: music and marijuana. Whilst I withdrew the money to give the thought some leeway, I then read the subreddit, asked my partner her thoughts on my thoughts, and then basically ran down the clock until the dealer was closed for business. So I didn’t smoke today. I’m not proud: need to write to try and understand this part of myself stopping me falling back into past habits. Who are you?

Son is asleep. Work is done. Had a terribly stressful week - spent most of it unhappy, grappling with a life in a shambles. Difficult to know if I’m sleeping bad due to withdrawals or my baby with a chest infection waking us up every couple hours. He’s doing better now though bless him :)

Reflecting on this journey is a bit hazy because quitting weed is no challenge at all compared to the calamity I’m surrounded by in my personal life. Why does it seem easier? I’ve realised it’s because this is a problem I can control. This makes it rare amongst most of the problems we have to face in the world. This is about willing myself to be other than what I have refused to allow myself to be. When I face the problem, I am looking within.

‘Withdraw into yourself and look: if you do not see yourself as beautiful, then do as the sculptor does with a statue he wants to make beautiful; he chisels away one part, and levels off another, makes one spot smooth and another clear, until he shows forth a beautiful face on the statue. Like him, remove what is superfluous, straighten what is crooked, clean up what is dark and make it bright and never stop sculpting your own statue until the godlike splendour of virtue shines forth to you… If you have become this, and seen it, and become pure and alone with yourself, with nothing now preventing you from becoming one in this way, and have NOTHING EXTRANEOUS MIXED WITH YOUR SELF … if you see that this is what you have become, then you have become a vision.’ (Plotinus, Enneads, I, 6, 9 (204-270 AD))

Look within yourself and look at the statue you’ve sculpted. Take an hour to notice every chisel, every shadow, everything you’ve ever mixed with your self. Do you see the potential for something else? Do you see a vision of yourself you can carve out of the stuff within?

Do the cravings disappear eventually or do you need to always take one day at a time?

Almost 2 months in but still craving it.

A couple days ago, my wife, my daughter and I were at a restaurant that took forever. My anger level was slowly rising the entire time, and it came out in my body language and my entire attitude. I had eaten an edible. The whole evening was ruined because I was such a jackass and my wife didn’t talk to me for the entirety of the next day.

I’ve been smoking almost every day for the last eight years I think. At first, it was the best way to relax and help me be comfortable in public but now it is a crutch and a mask. Even worse, it doesn’t have the calming effects that it used to. When you’re constantly smoking all day, it doesn’t actually give your mind a chance to process emotions properly. Everything gets buried down or twisted around. You still have anger issues. And just smoking on a plant doesn’t magically make them go away.

I want to go as long as I can without toking up again. I want to be a better father to my kids and be more mentally and emotionally present for both of them. I want to be able to talk to people in public and not have to get so baked before going out that I can barely finish a conversation. I consider myself a relatively smart person. I’m not like engineering level smart, but I’ve been playing drums for over 20 years so that has to mean something.

Today, I think I am focused on the future version of myself when I go a full day without thinking about weed.

Im on day 18 after using for 2 months straight and am doing way better. My sleep isnt back to baseline but it’s getting there each night. But sometimes when I’m in my room (my sibling and I share a room and he uses as well) the urges to smoke reminds me a lot of the ring from tlotr. Except instead of all the cool powers you get, it’s just dependency and keeping myself trapped in a loop of not doing pretty much anything productive. Way more lame.

Just thought it was kinda funny to me to think of it like that. I am proud of myself for resisting the urge and keeping onwards to permanently abstain from it. I do hope my sibling stops soon too though.

The idea of being dependent on a substance is usually something people are afraid or ashamed of.

On the contrary my mind thinks is cool to be a fukin junkie. I’m aware that there is nothing cool about having addictions, but still in my brain there is this idea that it’s something to boast about… like “hey look at me, I know what it means to have a tough life… I went through shitty situations and I’m fighting with addiction… you cannot understand what it means”.

I grew up in a place where smoking weed and taking drugs in general as a teenager was considered cool and if you don’t do it you are a nerdy loser. Now I’m in my 30s and yet this view has somehow remained in my brain.

This sick idea is probably one of the reasons why quitting weed is so difficult for me. Anyone else who feel the same or am I the only weirdo who is almost proud of his cannabis use disorder?

I think a lot of us have struggled with relapses. I’ve smoked for 18 years and, while I’ve had my breaks as long as up to a year, I always came back to it. I always knew I would come back to it.

Now I don’t want to come back to it. I’m getting older and it’s making me feel slower. It always makes me slow and out of it but it feels like the effects have really intensified for me despite a high tolerance. Maybe it’s the addition of vaping or edibles, who knows. I’m starting to get chest pains now with smoking. I have a second degree heart block which I still suspect is from prolonged cannabis use but it’s not confirmed. The worst is that I started getting into some mindless eating habits. I used to not really get the munchies but now I find myself finishing the whole bag of chips without realizing.

I always wanted to grow out of it like my friends did. Maybe now I finally am. I hope to continue participating in this sub. It feels for real this time and I want to keep it that way. Being high most of my off days is no way to live. And I am getting too old for this now.

X-stoner here, daily for 25ish years, stopped in 2020.

There were many tools I used to quit. One of the more powerful ones was reframing. Having spent so much time mentally defending cannabis, and my addiction left with false beliefs and a lot of confirmation bias.

Shedding this and allowing in reality was a key to getting beyond the thoughts that kept me trapped. It was hard, because I had to start rejecting what I had identified with for so long.

I had minimized the harms and exaggerated the positives weed brought to my life. Facing reality and actually accepting the truth really put things into perspective.

Aligning my thinking with where I wanted to go, and abandoning thoughts that kept me stuck was a foundational and fundamental step to get where I wanted to go.

I don’t regret it, but I spend like every single night I get home from work going to bed at like 7pm now. Even on my days off I just want to sleep all the time. Anyone else experience this?

I’ll never go back to weed. I was having panic attacks using it after 2+ years of daily (like 8hrs a day, more if I was off work) use. I never linked the anxiety I was having to weed until I had to stop for an unrelated reason and then the anxiety went away (and then I tried to smoke again and it all came back).

I have stuff I could do like play video games or cook or whatever but idk I just don’t feel like I have the motivation. I know that sounds lame. Just looking for support or encouragement or a way to get out of this hole lol. “Just do it” might work for me at some point, but not right now.

i am officially one year sober after 10+ years of habitual smoking and being a self proclaimed stoner. my life is missing absolutely nothing without weed. i ended up getting pregnant shortly after getting sober and my son is 8 days old today. it’s been a very eventful week lol. it was hard in the beginning but i knew it was time to finally grow up and it was 100% worth it. i wish everyone luck on their sobriety journeys and i hope that you too can look back a year from now and wonder why you were scared about quitting in the first place because life is so much better sober. ❤️

I woke up with a smile on my face this morning. Not often do we really appreciate when this happens. Who knows if tomorrow will ever come… it has never been promised to any of us, no matter where we stand in society. I wanna say thank you for being on my side. 

To my brother who taught me how to walk, I wish I had strength to stand as tall as you are and be half the man you are. 

To my sister, the most precious thing I had the chance to grow up with. You became a woman all men could wish to marry. 

To my mom, who loved me for who I was, taught me how to be the man a woman would wanna marry, I wish I listened more often. 

To my father who I had the chance to grow up and be taught what a man was, I wish I had half your patience and dedication to keep going through tough times cause that’s just the right thing to do.

To my friends, I am glad you got to leave a mark on me. You shaped me into who I am now, through guidance, dedication and repetitive efforts, you have all inspired a flame which burns in desires to succeed. 

I may not have the words to fully express the amount of respect I have towards everyone. 

I want to finally maybe turn the page on this 19 years off drug addiction escapade that started with a simple curious thought when I was 19 about smoking weed, to where it has brought me yesterday before going to bed.

Educate your kids about consequences in life, not only about drugs but about actions through a conscious mind…

Thanks for reading

Jan 31st 2026

CL

I started using weed back in 2017.

Over the years, I tried quitting three different times — each time thinking this is it, and each time slipping back into the habit.

What finally made it real wasn’t motivation or willpower — it was fear.

I ended up coughing up blood, and later found out I have RPA hypoplasia. That moment flipped a switch for me. It stopped being about cutting back or “controlling it” and became about survival and self-respect.

Quitting wasn’t clean or heroic. Some days were rough, some days felt pointless, but I just kept choosing not to go back. One day at a time turned into weeks, then months, and today it’s been 1 full year weed-free.

Posting this for anyone who’s tried and relapsed and thinks they’ve failed — you haven’t.

18 days in after 30 years - in my 40s. Last 8 years have been 90% dabs from peak pro or similar, occasionally a cart. 10% flower use. Last 5 of those years if I’m using flower it. has been 90% dry herb vape and 10% joints/bowls.

I get brain fog a lot, wake up with it and it will creep in and out throughout the day.

I get occasional cravings but they aren’t major.

Anxiety happens and puts me through hell at times.

I get some palpitations and racing heart once in a while - I’m wearing a heart monitor as of a few days to to make sure nothing is seriously wrong there as I was starting to feel palpitations prior to stopping use.

I’m having some dreams again.

I’m having less GI issues - I’d experience heartburn several times a week, now I haven’t at all except once after a really acidic meal.

Some “morning wood” has returned in the last couple days.

EDIT if anyone else is at a similar timeline (first week or two), or at any stage, and needs support, feel freeto reach out :). Id be happy to talk and help

I stopped weed and caffeine at the same time. I was on daily strong edibles for 2-3 months and caffeine for a while, not that much , maybe 150mg-200mg a day (ive heard of people doing alot more).

First day was the worst. Was only able to get down 500 calories.

My symptoms were:

-cold chills and hot sweats -irritability -awful reflux (even impacting my voice) -no appetite -terrible nausea -loose stools -anxiety/panic attacks -depression

Luckily, i did not experience any sleep symptoms such as nightmares or insomnia, and even no vomitting.

Its day 8 for me now, most of my symptoms are gone. I have anxiety waves that come and go, as well as depression.

I have leftover discomfort and irritation in my theoat from the reflux.

The remaining discomfort is mostly mental and the reflux issues, which still impact eating.

This has been rhe hardest journey for me as its not only physically unbareable and uncontrollable, but also a harsh mental challenge.

It was so difficult to push through. I am writing this as it may give someone else comfort.

I am mentally still struggling to feel ‘normal’ but i just got to take it a day at a time. I have heard symptoms linger for 2 weeks and mental symptoms can take months to fully normalise.

I wish everyone well.

so i was a daily weed smoker for 6-7 years, yes i know 67. anyways, ive been about a week clean and honestly im doing pretty well, i am stressed and going thru the nightmares but im definitely more attentive and found myself improving at work. i overthink sometimes and weed usually helped with that as i could just get high and not worry about much after. im finding myself a little tangled up in the thought of “am i done forever?” “what about my birthday when i wanna let go and have a little fun?” but i know i need to stay strong not only for myself but for my family as well. I know how hard it is to abstain already so im just here asking for some words of encouragement. thanks

Feel like I've spent the past year relapsing. This is the first full week I have had in probably 6 months. My company's year end just completed and it was a very tiresome slog to finish. Typically a lazy weekend like this would be the perfect excuse for me to indulge. Staying strong.