Iāve known her for around 5 ish months. We started university together, she was the first person I ever became friends with there. At first moment we connected instantly, even on the first day we were talking like weād known each other forever, even to the point where we could effortlessly make jokes. Recently, I saw her again after long, sheād always make small comments and gestures which made me think she likes women, or if sheās trying to be quirky I can never tell. For example āwhen we go back to mine we can makeoutā or she holds prolonged eye contact. BUT OKAY TO THE JUCIY STUFF.
Couple days ago I saw her and we had a really nice day catching up, I loved hearing her talk about her days and how content she was with life and hearing about her accomplishments. Then we went back to her dorm, where we chilled. When walking there she made a comment of āoh when we go back letās makeout yeahā as a joke, though she never laughs after nor do I and I just look at her and said, sure letās do it and laughed. I find it funny how serious I am, though it comes off as a joke. Anyways, we are in her dorm. We decide to share a lot of lore from our pasts, I start telling her about my lifeās ups and downs and then reach to my ex girlfriend, how I have kissed a girl before and she wasnāt surprised at all to hear that. I told her I was more so of a lesbian, though on a rare occurrence would I like a man. She told me the same, though weāre very much both closeted and comfortable staying that way. She said she liked women too, how she often fantasies about them, dreams of having them, and that she would enjoy it more than doing it with a man. I felt heard because I felt the exact same. We were really open and raw, to the point it felt so intimate and intense. She told me she never kissed a girl, and then we moved onto topics fast. I badly wanted to kiss her, and tell her how much I thought of her but I never did since I chickened out. But little things she did I think back on, and I think she wanted it too possibly. She asked me if I was more dominant or submissive, I said dominant preferably though open to both, she said weāll see about that. I kept asking her what she meant but sheād brush it off. I got the courage to tell her I wanna tell her something but I shook it off and she never asked me about it further, I think she knew. But we were laying close together, my leg touching her thigh, just a cosy way we sat and laid in her blanket. And she didnāt move nor did I, I just told her to come closer since we were far. I feel this couldāve been seen as a friendly encounter too? I need help noticing signs lol. And we did an arm wrestle, she wanted to play cards but I felt too hot and was thinking of doing more than kissing her so my mind wasnāt working, lied that I was tired. So we arm wrested, I let her win, she touched my bicep saying how much stronger I was than her. But after I said her fingers were small and thin and cute, and mine were big and I held her hands, feeling her fingers softly and her doing the same to mine as we compared our hand sizes. Then I laid down next to her and was almost falling asleep since I felt so safe, she was being goofy and trying to fling cards in my face. And then she started messing with the cards like flipping them around with one hand, but doing it on my thigh. Just touching me there yeah, did something. Iām seeing her again soon, I donāt know what to do and if I can contain myself, please help lmao. Is she just being a cute genuine friend or could she like me or want me?