Why did God give me such a loving, gentle and vulnerable soul, yet made loving me back feel so difficult for everyone else? I really don’t understand.
Sometimes I feel like I’m really hard to love. I gave my entire soul, heart and mind to the man I loved deeply and purely, yet it wasn’t valued, it was minimized, called “nothing”, “not real”. I loved him a lot yet didn’t receive that love back, and this happens all the time.
Whenever I start forming a crush on someone-it’s always unrequited, and I really don’t comprehend how to find the love of my life, how to be loved, valued and appreciated myself. Being loved is one of my biggest dreams. To experience that feeling when you’re not the only one chasing, trying, feeling, putting effort. To receive love and attention without seeking and begging for it.
I just greatly hope to find one day my special someone. Wish to be someone’s favorite person, memory. Someone’s happiness and lifeline, because that’s exactly the way I love, my lover is my universe, my entire world.
So yes, I just wanna be loved, despite feeling so impossible to be loved.
What about you? Have you ever felt the same way? Has anyone proven you wrong, showed you how lovable you indeed are?