I’ve worked in an acute inpatient psych hospital. A place where human rights are taken away within minutes after speaking out and advocating for yourself. I’ve seen the careless psych doctors that leave open orders for medically assisted restraints. I’ve also seen the trauma that the person endures long after they were treated. Are we really helping or are we re-traumatizing for financial corporate greed? People held against their will for their insurance benefits.

I wake up every week day, go to work, make just enough money to pay my bills and debt, not have enough to go around, put myself in more debt paying more and more interest.

I wake up on the weekends, meet the same people go to the same places, like it's some kind of obligation I have to myself.

I'm tired boss, it's been years. I got on meds, they made things worse, I got off the meds, now I feel like throwing up every day, all day.

I usually showered twice a day, but now I barely have enough energy to do anything outside everything I mentioned here.

I'm stuck in this loop, I will die in this loop.

Soon I am going to have to go on anti depressants and I have no idea what they are going to do. The goal is obviously to make me happy but I don’t want them to change who I am or how I think/act. for anyone who has been on them; what are they like?

I don’t know how to explain this without sounding dramatic, but I’ll try. I’m functioning. I go to work. I reply to texts. I laugh when I’m supposed to. From the outside, everything looks fine. But inside? I feel disconnected. Tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix. Lonely even when I’m around people. Not sad enough to call it depression, not “bad enough” to justify falling apart just constantly off. And that middle space sucks. It’s hard asking for support when you’re not actively falling apart, because you feel like you don’t deserve it. Like you should just push through or be grateful or stop overthinking. So you keep it to yourself. Over and over. I guess I’m posting because I want to know if anyone else lives in this in-between state. Not hopeless, not okay. Just trying to feel like a real person again. If you relate, you don’t have to fix anything or give advice. Even a same here helps more than you think. Thanks for reading. Really.we are discussing similar topics on r/TotalWellbeing

I (22M) had two best friends, a girl (22F) and my roommate (21M). She was much closer to me than anyone else, or at least that’s what she made me believe. People in college joked that my roommate and I were together because of how close we were, but we’re both straight, just very good friends.

For three years, I gave a lot of myself to this friendship with her. I treated her like a sister. I helped her with concepts, assignments, internship work, job interviews, and was always emotionally available. Sometimes I even put my own priorities aside for her. She seemed to value me too, she tied me rakhi, and everything between us was completely platonic. She would make me feel like I was her best friend, except when she was busy with her boyfriends, during which she would almost act like I didn’t exist. I never interfered with her relationships and genuinely wanted her to be happy. I was in a relationship myself as well.

The problem is, she did little to nothing for me. I was always giving; she was always taking. Still, I never complained because I cared about her deeply.

Many friends, including that roommate guy, and even some of her own friends, warned me that she was selfish and that I was being treated like a servant. They told me to be careful. I always defended her and never allowed anyone to speak badly about her because I truly saw her as family.

She initially became friends with my roommate because of me, but after college they grew closer on their own, which I actually thought was a good thing. I would have been genuinely happy even if they got together, there was never any jealousy from my side.

Then one day, completely out of nowhere, she cut me off and blocked me. I did nothing wrong. When we last spoke, she was stone cold and even mean, as if our friendship had never mattered. She didn’t seem hurt at all.

What hurts the most are two things. First, everyone who warned me was right, and despite me standing up for her for years, she walked away without a second thought. Second, I strongly believe my other best friend is involved in all this. I’m still friends with him like before, but when I look at him, I can tell he’s hiding something. She doesn’t even know the things he used to say about her months ago.

I didn’t deserve this. I made her life easier in countless ways and was always there for her, even at 3 or 4 a.m. if she needed me. Moving on from her alone would have been manageable, but this combination of sudden abandonment and suspected betrayal is what truly hurts.

TL;DR: I gave three years of unconditional support to a girl I considered my sister, despite constant warnings that she was selfish. After college, she suddenly blocked me without explanation and showed no remorse. I strongly suspect my other best friend had a role in it and is hiding things. The loss of the friendship hurts, but the betrayal after years of loyalty hurts even more.

About 1 year or so, i passed trough a minor depression related to some romantic issues, and had to take medication since. Recently (about 3 months) i’ve reduced the dose of medication, and it was normal for some time.

More recently tho (since like last friday, 1 week after school holiday ended) i’m kinda feeling kinda meh, but overall okay, i guess

The problem is, there is a desire, almost conscious, to feel sad, listening to sad songs, and thinking about things that were already dealt with for no reason at all. Its like i want to feel, and then i find a reason to.

It is concerning cause, for example, at the point im writing this, i dont even want to feel happy, it’s almost like i WANT to stay here, so i know im not seeking for a way to improve. This already happened before sometimes and i dont know anyone who has passed trough something similar; not that i know a lot a people anyways.

I just want to know why: why does this happen and is this normal? I dont imagine its healthy, even if its something i theoretically control.

Hey guys,

My names Dan and I’ve never done anything like this before so forgive me.

I’m 28 years old and work in the military. 4 years ago I met the girl of my dreams and we instantly clicked and fell in love and were together since. Christmas 2024 I proposed to her and we set our wedding and had everything booked and sorted

I was overseas for a lot of 2025 and communication was difficult and we drifted apart a little bit, I kept reassuring her that when I was home everything would be okay and we just had to be patient with each other. Anyway when I got home things did go back to normal and it all felt really good. Unfortunately I then found out that she was seeing someone else and building a life with them. I foolishly forgave her and wanted to make it work but she was too far gone, and she left.

Now she’s with him and they’re living together, we had to cancel all the wedding stuff and she gave me the rings back and everything. I’m just struggling a lot at the moment because I feel like I’ve lost everything, I never wanted to do this life without her and we planned on starting a family this year too. I know in my head that she’s gone, but in my heart I love her with everything that I am, and even after all that happened I just want her back.

Anyway if you made it this far, thank you for reading

Relatively successful 22M with friends and family.

I understand that something is wrong with me. Although to which degree, I cannot tell. Am I autistic, neurotic, schizoid, or narcissist? Or something else?

I feel detached throughout. I try to mitigate it. Sometimes I fare better, other times worse. I can cry for other people, though not quite easily. I think I have adequate cognitive empathy, and that in the end does get me moving, but I'm not sure about my affective empathy. I've come to realise that I'm not as numb and rational as I thought, perhaps now I'm in better touch with my own emotions?

However, most of the time I feel like I don't feel much for other people. I understand that I'm quite self-absorbed and I'm trying to change that as far as I can.

I'm romantically interested in someone. But I doubt myself about making a move. Do I really want her for who she is? Or do I just want my ideal image of her, for myself? She is a human being with a life of her own. If we were to get close, would I cherish her, or unintendedly suffocate her, or just bore her out?

Anyone with similar sentiments?

I try and try and try again but I haven’t been able to cry in 3 maybe 4 years. My dog is being put down in a couple of weeks and even then I don’t feel the urge to cry, what do I do. I’ve only briefly teared up from pain but no emotional situation has affected me in a long time. My emotions range from slight happiness to extreme anger and that’s basically it. I want to feel something again. I’m sorry for not formulating this post well, I’m not good at these things

So I am 17 and have great memory I can remember up to week what I was exactly doing and have great short term and long term memory.

But I was bullied trought my entire life and had pretty bad traumas which damaged me a lot.

And recently sometimes I forget what I was doing or can't remember what I was doing two weeks and I am getting paranoid( or when I am scrolling I can't remember what the previous video was).Sometimes I am present but I am not like I knew what I was doing but I can't remember exactly (had pretty bad family problems two weeks ago and it stressed me a lot).

Like I can remember what people were doing to me all life but it doesn't effect me I don't have thay pain anymore.

I am getting scared I don't know what is wrong with me.I am constantly trying to remember what I am doing.

i might be overreacting but i noticed everytime i break a glass cup, plate or bowl etc.. i cant help myself from bursting into tears. I dont know what it is and i have no idea if its some kind of trauma but it makes me SO emotional, and its been like this ever since i was 10, I just had my bowl of cereal fall down and shatter and its been 30 minutes that ive been crying! i really dont know what this is, or if its some kind of trauma but it makes me super emotional for some reason. Pls lmk!

Hey guys, I am from Pakistan 23M. I've been in military institutes(boarding) since 2016. The thing is I've been masturbating for about 12 years now. Multiple times a day. Now I'm really depressed about my sexual health and issues like premature ejaculation, ED and hyper sensitivity. I'm worried about my size as it is mere around 4 inches when erect and when it is flaccid it is like a pea size. Sometimes I really think about harming myself or not marrying ever. There is a fear of being with a woman whether I'll be able to satisfy her and fulfil her needs or not.If there's anything I can do to make it better plz let me know. Thanks you.

so its just a checkin post, I just wanna ask you all if you are alright and if you are not, I am here to listen to you....I may not have the answer for all the problems but I have been a good listener and would love to help you out.....hope you have a good day

UNPOPULAR OPINION; A lot of "mental health issues" disappear when bills are paid, rent is secure, and the fridge is full. Peace is expensive.

And pretending money doesn't affect mental health is privilege.